My life has changed inexorably. It is best, at the outset to define inexorably: in a way that is impossible to stop or prevent. I would not want this life change to stop, would not want to have it prevented, so it is the perfect word. This life change has many facets, which is one side of something many-sided, There are numerous synonyms: aspect, feature, side, dimension, particular, characteristic, detail, point, ingredient, strand, factor; component, constituent, element, part, section, portion, piece, bit; angle, slant, sense, respect, regard, way, viewpoint, standpoint. Many aspects, features, ingredients and dimensions have been ‘in the mix’ for some time but the defining moment of this change was the moment that Alexis leases a Lexus. From that moment on, my existence blossomed in so many ways. After writing this last sentence From This Moment On reverberated in my mind, somehow I knew it was a song. So, in my usual fashion, I googled it and WOW what a moving experience it was to listen to the duet between Bryan White and Tania Twain. Twain once explained, “We were in Italy at a soccer game. But googling led to even more, guidance upon how one can live in the moment:
Focus on the now. In order to live in the moment, you need to focus on the now. …
Pay attention to the small things. Notice the world around you: the small things. …
Smile. …
Perform random acts of kindness. …
Give thanks. …
Don’t worry.
I have evidenced no ability to link anything on YouTube so you shall have to google the duet yourself. If I can do it, you can do it. Try it, you might just like it.
That is the strangest part, angle, piece of writing this blog. I just get started and, it seems randomly, material comes and what was originally intended is modified, altered and changed. Do wonder what will happen with the upcoming pod cast. How will that evolve? What form will it take? Suppose I (and you, should you listen) will find out. It is already evolving – its name seems magically endowed. Endow is a verb which means to provide with a quality, ability, or asset. You shall learn of how the name of the blog This Is My Voice was Imbued (inspire or permeate with a feeling or quality) in subsequent blogs prior to the launching of the pod cast.
But now, back to From This Moment On. The lyrics shall now be provided:
From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on
From this moment, I have been blessed
I live only, for your happiness
And for your love, I give my last breath
From this moment on
I give my hand to you with all my heart
I can’t wait to live my life with you I can’t wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you
From this moment, as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing, I wouldn’t give
From this moment on
You’re the reason I believe in love
And you’re the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you
From this moment, as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing, I wouldn’t give
From this moment, I will love you
As long as I live from this moment on
As anyone can see, this is a romantic song – crooned to the man of some woman’s dreams. From this moment on is about Alexis and a Lexus – what sort of relationship is this? We have some things in common, a name to begin with, we are both sporty, and (for me in the past) fast. But goodness knows I am not easy to handle, easy to navigate and am not provided with a back up screen or incredible sound system. My voice is loud, as is my laugh. I do have a rather enduing quality (joke) – when I laugh really hard and uncontrollably I snort. It is involuntary, took place yesterday in the office of G.E.M.
Me: Oh my goodness! I just snorted! How rude!
He: I do not mind at all. It is rather unique. No one else I know snorts.
Me: Then you are a lucky man!
He: I guess I am, if you say so.
Me: Honestly, at least two members of Royalty made offers of marriage to me. Imagine a snorting Princess or Queen?
He: Royalty?
Me: Middle East Royalty but their ancestors go much further back in time than the Windsors.
He: Really?
Me: What really? The proposals or history lesson?
He: Well, perhaps both.
Me; Well you could google the history portion but you do know that I always tell the truth.
He: I do.
Let the record reflect (that is lawyer speak) that both proposals went no where. One I refused, one I accepted but he stood me up – how extremely cruel to arrive in Dubai with no hotel reservations – but reservations were easy to obtain even in the midst of a rain storm. Yes, it is true! I arrived in Dubai, in January of 2020, from London, in the midst of a rain storm. What a profound sense of timing, that was. As you can see, I got over the cruel rejection, and am most thankful at this moment of the failure. Not then, actually thought of killing myself. Throwing myself off the 18th floor balcony of my hotel. But obviously, I did not. Did not grow wings and fly from the suicidal gesture. Nope, just waited until morning, went down to the lobby, got help in turning on the lights in my room. Bald Brian came to educate me on the sophistication of the devices, told me about the second floor pool – the sun and a huge margarita cured the problem Wonder what happened to him? He does look very sad and haunted (or did as I know longer see his face, or any other part of him. When I am done, I am done.
There are other folks of Middle East Royalty that were interested but all of that is behind me. Wise Man provided this wisdom:
He: Alexis, don’t look back to the past.
Me: OK I will not. That is excellent advice. Enjoy my present wonderful life.
This was my glorious morning. I have established a new habit which is a a settled or regular tendency or practice, especially one that is hard to give up. Some synonyms are practice, custom, pattern,, policy, wont,, tradition, matter of course,. It is now my practice, custom and tradition to set my alarm, wake up before sunrise, then at sunrise face Mecca and pray to Allah. I think I am facing Mecca, I have no sense of direction. I am sure Allah will forgive my get it wrong.
Then I cut up some empty boxes that were lettering my apartment and placed them in the appropriate garbage bins. It is necessary to create one’s own order – not rely on another to do it for you. I had been relying on someone else. My order is working better than hers ever was.
Then it was out to my patio to restore order and place another unicorn. A fellow resident was passing by and spoke.
She: I love your patio!
Me: Thank you thank you! I love my patio too
She: No wonder that you do!
Me: And I love you for loving my patio.
So we brought each other joy and happiness. I counted yesterday, brought 12 people joy and happiness, they told me so. My Lexus took me to Montecito Shopping Center in San Rafael. I revisited a Middle Eastern market, the Jasmine Market and spoke to staff, telling them of my former life in Marin, when the market was on my way home to Peacock Gap and then my departure to far away places.
He: Welcome back!
Me: Thank you! You are making me cry, but tears of joy not sorrow.
Today new adventures will take place, made possible by my Lexus.
The photograph is of the patio that brought a fellow resident joy.
