I woke two mornings ago to a certain ‘remembered’ refrain – I lie down with thee, I awaken with thee. I utilized my curiosity using Google, finding that it must come from Psalm 3 – the version that ‘spoke’ to me was the Passion version of the Old Testament.
“King David’s song when he was forced to flee from Absalom, his own son
The Humbling of a King
1. Lord, I have so many enemies, so many who are against me.
2. Listen to how they whisper their slander against me, saying:
“Look! He’s hopeless! Even God can’t save him from this!”
Pause in his presence
The Help of God
3. But in the depths of my heart I truly know
that you, Yahweh, have become my Shield;
You take me and surround me with yourself.
Your glory covers me continually.
You lift high my head.
4. I have cried out to you, Yahweh, from your holy presence.
You send me a Father’s help.
Pause in his presence
The Song of Safety
5. So now I’ll lie down and sleep like a baby—
then I’ll awake in safety, for you surround me with your glory.
6. Even though ten thousand dark powers prowl around me,
I won’t be afraid.
The Secret of Strength
7. Rise up and help me, Yahweh! Come and save me, God!
For you will slap them in the face,
breaking the power of their words to harm me.
8. For the Lord alone is my Savior.
What a feast of favor and bliss he gives his people!
Pause in his presence
It does describe how I feel and would not have found it in its entirety without the Internet. The Islamic faith is most rational and scientific so I can easily appreciate and accept the gift. It does describe the utter peace felt when one trusts in Yahweh.
But, did not know of, or about Yahweh, so looked that up. “The Qur’an’s Allah is the same Creator God who covenanted with Abraham”. Peters states that the Qur’an portrays Allah as both more powerful and more remote than Yahweh, and as a universal deity, unlike Yahweh who closely follows Israelites. “
Therefore, my logical mind deduced, I can substitute Allah for Yahweh in the scripture. Now THIS has meaning and actually is the feeling I woke up with All praise to Allah on my lips. Did I EVER kneed strength! I begin my days by checking into Instagram and reading my blog. But there was no blog – just a notice that my blog had been suspended.
Back to Allah and more research. “Muslims believe that God is the only true reality and sole source of all creation. Everything including its creatures are just a derivative reality created out of love and mercy by God’s command, “…”Be,” and it is.” and that the purpose of existence is to worship or to know God.”
So my logical mind was again batting a thousand. Now where in the world does that expression come from? It was back to Google; “In baseball, someone with a batting average of one thousand (written as 1.000) has had a hit for every at bat in the relevant time period (e.g., in a game). AHDI dates its non-baseball usage to the 1920s. May also be used sarcastically when someone is getting everything wrong.” Where did it come from? What is its opposite? “Have a perfect record, as in In meeting deadlines, she’s batting one thousand. The term comes from baseball statistics, where it signifies getting a hit for every turn at bat. It was transferred to other activities in the 1920s.” The opposite is this: “Opposite of doing very well or achieving 100% striking out. failing epically. flunking out.” My logical deductive mind connected Allah with Yahweh, so it all seemed to make sense. Well, not altogether, obviously as why in the world did I wake up with Psalm Three in my mind. Moreover, and more importantly what happened to my blog?
Yesterday Wise Man and I discussed the calamity of finding my blog had been suspended?
He: How did you react? What did yo do? How did it feel?
Me: Many ways and many feelings. But my first panicked thought was that I had lost my identity.
He: I knew that would be so – as the blog has become you.
Me: Yes, you are so smart. No wonder I pay you the big bucks. I have grown to see myself as Alexis, The Blogger, Alexis, The Writer, Alexis, The Famous. It disappeared before my eyes. Panic and disbelief were my first two reactions. Then others followed.
Me: I shall.
Then I went on to describe my inner feelings which will be revealed at a later time. But at this moment shall describe my outward behavior and actions. Made breakfast and coffee, went on my patio, describing my fate to friends and passerbys. Here are some of the responses.
C. Email them the sight. Ask them what happened!
Me: Well I can’t as I do not manage by account ! But I did email Chris.
He: Good!
Me: Thanks Optimist! I am On IT.
Another woman who exercises daily in the pool. We have conversed on many occasions.
Me: My blog got suspended.
She: You will work it out. I know you will
Me: Thank you for your vote of confidence.!
Another sullen woman going to the pool.
Me: My blog has been suspended, I feel like I have lost my identity. You have no idea how that feels.
She: (No response).
Me: (Quietly and to myself) No you do not have any idea how that feels.
I did, of course, email Chris, in some degree of panic.
Me: It says the account has been suspended!!! What the hell is going on pray tell. Please get back to me immediately, if not sooner.
He: Hi Alexis, Im not exactly sure what happened, but I got on to tech support with our host and they did something at their end and it seems to be up and running again, I think it was something to do with a system update to address that big hack Joe Biden was going on about last week (nothing specific to you in particular)
Me: Darn! I was sort of hoping it was me. That either Israel, or Canada, of Qatar or someone or something that I had ‘taken on’ was attempting to silence me – prevent me from sharing my truths. Oh well – thanks luv.
In the meantime AAA arrived. I had not heard from Chris as yet so we had to revise our plans for the day as anything blog related seemed irrelevant at this point. We decided to video a reel on Instagram, with me describing my plight. She is much more intelligent than I about Instagram (and other matters). Within hours I was notified that the reel had received 5k views. Yes, rather mind boggling.
She also sent a replacement photo for the blog to Chris upon my request. It is a picture taken by AAA, with make up by AAA of Alexis in her Muslim attire. Not positive why that became a priority but it did. Will think about it and talk of it. It will mean that my About Me section needs to be rewritten, but it is time.
Messaged Wise Man.
Me: Now this is a crisis. My blog has been suspended! Reason unknown at present. In hordes of pain with knee and back. Pain meds not touching.
He: Your blog MUST be restored.
Me: You said the right thing as usual. Poof – it made me cry.
Later..
Me: Its back up!
He: (Sent gif of fireworks exploding). Celebrate
Me: I am, sending you a gif of me dancing on the ceiling. Until tomorrow at 3.
Wednesday was a busy day, too busy resulting in horrible pain. Walked to Holly for a mani and pedi, pictured by toes with the following caption. My gold toes thanks to Holly. We are having fun talking about men. My nails gold too. I am as good as gold!
Then Ubered it to Wise Man and back. In horrible pain. Went to jacuzzi, speaking with my new 8 year old friend. We love talking to one another in the Jacuzzi. To bed so early as in so much pain.
Photo is of toes.
