This is going to be a weirdo day, no doubt about that. Decided to begin it with a calm, inspiring photo – Yasmin’s Quran. This was my caption. “My morning greeting to you. Pages from Yasmin’s Quran gifted to her by her grandfather almost fifty years ago. It was purchased in Mecca” . I continue to find the juxtaposition amazing. Fifty years is a short span – my first Quran, not given to me by my grandfather returning from his Umrah BUT my first Quran was on my Apple iPad. During Covid everything was closed down.
Immediately after sending my WhatsApp morning greeting I wrote my response to Nesh’s blog breakdown of yesterday. I was definitely getting behind. Yesterday’s blog was posted late last evening and did not include the blog breakdown response He responded immediately.
He: I read the blog’s breakdown’s comments today morning and it was wonderful Thank you for your words. This is what I had sent and he immediately read.
To Nesh
I was with Shamir when your blog breakdown arrived – the day proved to be most busy so I have not until now, the Monday morn had time to respond to your The Truth Always Reveals Itself Even in Teardrops.
Your choice of photo – perfect yet again. The core message captured: Peace returns when honesty leads. Weaving in ‘what I wicked web we weave” was genius and then staying close to Allah and leaving in truth brings peace. The reason is so basic – only Allah can chase away Satan and wicked people are entrapped by Allah.
Abstract Photo & Morning Reflection
The reader’s comment intensified the impact – the raindrops “elevated the the photo and added to the vibe.
Truth as a Theme
Definitely so, I have become obsessed with the Truth – actually have been most of my life. I was forced to lie as a child – not telling the truth of my abuse. When I was finally able to tell the world about it – it opened the door to the power of truth and I have kept that door open. You can imagine how blessed I feel to be a Muslim when the Quran “urges us to stand for the truth and perseverance, and to surround ourselves with people who urge us to do both”. When I am able to do this – the joy it brings me!!!!
Then the photo of Yasmin’s Quean which I did use this morning for my morning greeting.
Nesh’s Breakdown & My Response
Yes!! I could not understand the feeling of the next morning peace until the read your breakdown – I had broken free of the wicked web.
Mercy at Dawn & Small Gifts
Yes Again!! The beauty of telling the truth and reflecting on it it peace returns. I have done extensive research on deceit, learning of the horror that liars experience – they do not believe in ANYTHING. Imagine how alienating that must be, think about it.
Family Growing by Leaps and Bounds
It is so paradoxical that Alexis McBride – a barren woman with no family is this Fertile Myrtle with scopes of adopted children of many generations – none looking, even remotely, like me. Hahahah
OF COURSE I loved the photo of Yasmin and me. I had the wisdom to turn it into black and white. I am wearing her white head dress, the one she wears during prayers.
“Truth clears the fog. Mercy brings the light. Alhamdulillah for mornings that begin with clouds and end with calm hearts”
Lying in bed with my computer suddenly thought of the Balm of Gilead. Knew I had written about it in the past, so used the magical search engine of the blog to find: Balm in Gilead; There Will Be No Balm Unless We Seek the Face of God; Salam and Good Morning Granny; Some Joyous News: Please Do Not Jump Off the Roof in Happiness: Photos of a Greeting, written on April 17, 2024. This is how it began.
Today the inspiration that came to mind was There is a Balm in Gilead. A short synopsis: The Balm of Gilead is interpreted as a spiritual medicine that is able to heal Israel (and sinners in general). Certainly Israel needs some spiritual medicine to heal, but why I kept thinking of this was still not altogether clear. Research continued. Wikipedia had more to say: (It always has more to say) : “In the Old Testament, the balm of Gilead is taken most directly from Jeremiah chapter 8 v. 22: “Is there no balm in Gilead? Is there no physician there? Why then is there no healing for the wounds of my [God’s] people?” (Another allusion can also be found in Jeremiah chapter 46, v. 2 and 11: “This is the message (of the Lord) against the army of Pharaoh Neco … Go up to Gilead and get balm, O Virgin Daughter of Egypt, but you multiply remedies in vain; here is no healing for you” – see also Jeremiah chapter 22, v. 6.) [1]
The blog was written a year and a half ago, during a rather troubled time. It was going to prove even more troubled before the truth would finally be discovered. I do laugh at the continuing cycle of my life. There is a solution to the reoccurring agony. Do not get married again until I get to Jannah. In the meantime, use all of my time and energy getting to Jannah – hopefully, my final resting place. You see, this is the scientific truth, learned about ten years ago. I attract narcissistic men – those guys are crazy about empathetic people like me. My life has been a dreadful parade of narcissistic men, in the ‘romantic’ department. I am capable of forming lasting relationships with good guys – they treasure me, I treasure them. But somehow I marry the narcissist (or more recently) , dump them. The man in my life last April was a narcissus – not only that, he was a liar – a hypocrite. I see now, from this distance and my new found knowledge that his family (who I met) were trapped in his wicked web. If I had not looked back to that blog, it would have been lost to memory as my exes (the former guys) become invisible – vanishing from my mind’s eye.
Here is the good news. There are many men in my life these days. They are ‘family’ members, not potential spouses. Family members friends or members of the Dream Team.
Not sure when Nesh’s breakdown will appear on our screens – yours and mind. At 7:46 this morning he wrote that he would “have it up a little later today.”
My day is going to be rather unusual , perhaps downright mind-boggling,, verging on mind blowing. Communicated with Shamir:
Me: I am looking forward to today because I get to see Dr. Lee. If I were to see both Dr. Lee and you in one day I would be in ecstasy. Hahahah You, Dr. Lee AND Nesh would die and be in Jannah instantly. Hahaha
HeL Hahaha 😂 Good morning.
Needless to say, not one of these three men are marriage material. Hahahah
By the way, I think I have thought of a word that might describe the ‘’group’ caught up in the wicked web. The word is matrix. Again, not a perfect choice, but getting closer. It is defined as an environment in which something develops; a surrounding medium. There are no synonyms in the definition.
Perhaps I shall ask Artificial Intelligence. Slightly better answer. Context for Growth: A situation or environment from which something can develop, like a “cultural matrix” or a “matrix of learning”.or a network, a complex system of intersecting lines, paths or features. Hmmmmm.
More later, such a busy day. I am convinced that Dr. Lee will bring an accurate diagnosis, help and good cheer. First home visit he said to me: “Just be happy.” I am working on it, Dr, Lee.
Photographs will be pages from the precious children’s book, soon to be uploaded to Instagram, via Nesh. I am SO blessed by Allah. Allhanduillah.
