Not again, Alexis, Not again. I can hear the collective moans being heard worldwide.
You: Not another song that comes to mind for no reason at all, no reason whatsoever.
Me: I am afraid so. I cannot help it. It is involuntary
The song that came to mind this time was.
“I Just Want To Be Your Everything”
For so long
You and me been finding each other for so long
And the feeling that I feel for you is more than strong, girl
Take it from me
If you give a little more than you’re asking for
Your love will turn the key
Darling, mine
I would wait forever for those lips of wine
Build my world around you, darling
This love will shine, girl
Watch it and see
If you give a little more than you’re asking for
Your love will turn the key
I, I just want to be your everything
Open up the Heaven in your heart and let me be
The things you are to me
And not some puppet on a string
Oh, if I, if I stay here without you, darling, I will die
I want you laying in the love I have to bring
I’d do anything
To be your everything
Darling, for so long
You and me been finding each other for so long
And the feeling that I feel for you is more then strong, girl
Take it from me
If you give a little more than you’re asking for
Your love will turn the key
I, I just want to be your everything
Open up the heaven in your heart and let me be
The things you are to me
And not some puppet on a string
Oh, if I, if I stay here without you, darling, I will die
I want you laying in the love I have to bring
I’d do anything
To be your everything
I, I just want to be your everything
Open up the heaven in your heart and let me be
The things you are to me
And not some puppet on a string
Oh, if I, if I stay here without you, darling, I will die
I want you laying in the love I have to bring
‘Cause I’d do anything
To be your everything
Now you MUST be joking – how could a woman or a man have a “ heaven in their heart to pen up”? That defies both imagination and science. And if you give a little more than you are asking for, it is not love that it is going to turn the key – it is the landlord. Hahaha He is going to build his world around her? I hope she is fat, otherwise not much real estate. He does not want to be a puppet on a string – guy has no sense of fun and adventure. However, if Allah is substituted as the love object then the song has meaning. One’s heart if opened, Allah has boundless, immeasurable love for believers, Allah can, and has, built a whole world, Allah can, can should be your everything.
One reason for my joy is that I excommunicated someone from my life. A strange word for a Muslim to use – but as you may see it might be a good use of the word.
(Excommunicate: officially exclude (someone) from participation in the sacraments and services of the Christian Church). Nope that does not work – I am not the Christian Church. But looked up the synonyms and found this word: banish. That is the word is banish.
A believer cannot have a close relationship with a nonbeliever except under certain conditions. I constantly, tactfully explained this to this individual during the three months since our introduction to one another. She continued to not hear my words, refusing to respect both me and my faith. She sent reels of ‘sisterhood’ and repeated demands that I be her sister. She would not stop!! I wrote, abandoning my silence. “Do not be ridiculous. You are not my sister. You are not a Muslim. I am forbidden to have you as a sister by Allah. I would NEVER sacrifice my faith OR Jannah to have you as a sister. You do not keep your commitments to me, you used me while pretending to gift me. Most importantly you lied to me. You could never be a sister.I hate liars. So does Allah.
What happened next. I was ignored, not respected, keep up a barrage of meaningless ‘sisterhood’ reels saying “”Everything that is doing is Allah.” So I banished her. Banish :expel, exile, expatriate, extradite, repatriate, cast out, oust, drive away, throw out, exclude, shut out, ban, ostracize.
Knowing that individual there will be inquiries to everyone.
She: Why did she block me?.
They probably won’t but they merely have to say.
They: Read the blog.
I am incapable of blocking or banishing anyone from reading my blog.
My story, the story of truth can be told here. Allah is my guide and my inspiration.
September 30, 2025
Rereading my writing from yesterday I was rather amazed to see the banishment chronicled – not the accomplishments, the loyalty, the creativity, the support. The reason, I suppose, it is out of character, shall we say. I am extremely kind hearted, extremely empathetic too much so actually. But, excuse me, I was a lawyer. Observant individuals watching my in action for a couple of months said: Dnefwmmcb. Do Not Ever F With Ms. McBride.
Back to yesterday – now mentioning only those who did not mess with me – absolutely the opposite, these wonderful people. . The day began with Fajr prayer, then a meditation.Later in the day I learned there is an Arab word for this time and this practice -highly recommended by the Prophet (PBUH) It was on YouTube – will try and find it.
But it was strange finding it was recommended and I already did it, not hearing of the practice before. My thoughts gathered I sent emails to Shamir and to Nesh talking about future plans – our October plans – new ventures, new projects. Received a great response from both. Shamir and I will have important business meetings on Wednesday.
I did deviate from my usual practices, I did sent a lengthly response to Nesh’s breakdown My Search for Knowledge Never Stops. However, decided not to post it on the blog, thus sharing with others. My immediate response upon reading the breakdown:
Me: You NEVER disappoint
He: Oh my these make my day, they really do! Thank you.
As usual during the day Shamir and I exchanged texts via WhatsApp Talking about our day and plans. I am going to the pool. Do more writing and research. Maybe an appetizer at Mojo later. We can also congratulate ourselves on being great caring communicators. Talking about how we would give each other prizes on Wednesday for being good people to each other. As usual an exchange of GIFs.
You are out GIFing me today. I did get congratulated four times today for being positive.
Then he sent this. Saying AI did this.
Me: You are amazing!! Anandani Intelligence strikes again. Its going on the blog and you get a gold star. I sent it to Nesh and Nixon. Nesh impressed saying it was wonderful. Person of the year and it is only the beginning of October. I beat out Netanyahu and Trump. Hahahaha
Me: I am going down to Mojo to show everyone. Maybe I will get free food??
He: Hahahah Maybe they will since ur famous.
Spoiler: They didn’t. I had the Steak Tartare. It was delicious. It looked great when served with the raw egg in the middle. But forgot to take a photo at that moment. It does not look yummy but was.
I was texting Nesh this morning, telling him of my favorite practice, not possible at Lyf. I used to love pajamas day – would stay in my pjs all day, not go out, not have anyone in, not communicate with others. Loved my pajamas day.
He: Oh I see. Where where you when you did this last?
Me: My goodness a long time ago. Living in Edmonton.Groceries could be delivered, Cold outside but central heat. Pajamas day Jannah. Hahahaha Left there on September 28, 2023 not thinking it would be a permanent move. It was! Everything was left behind. My goodness I have been essentially homeless for two years. Yikes. Must blog about that.
I have been living in hotels since them. I have a ‘stay apartment’ I Paradise penang but it is a hotel and it ain’t homey and bad memories. It is essentially a storage facility at the moment.
Photos will include the half eaten steak tartare, final photos taken of the L egislative Building in Edmonton and a wall hanging from my Edmonton apartment. It is the flag of Saudi Arabia. I wonder who has it, and all of my stuff, now. Hahaha .
I found a reel I recorded on September 16, 2023, showing the air quality when I left Edmonton. It has not improved during the past two years from what I have read from scientific articles – media does not report bad news, concealing the truth. It will be on my YouTube.
At the moment Malaysia is looking real good Hahaha
