This song echoes for some reason, in my head. You Made Me Love You, Here are the lyrics.
You made me love you
I didn’t want to do it
I didn’t want to do it
You made me want you
And all the time you knew it
I guess you always knew it
You made me happy sometimes
You made me glad
But there were times
You made me feel so bad
You made me cry for
I didn’t want to tell you
I didn’t want to tell you
I want some love that’s true
Yes, I do, ‘deed I do
You know I do
Gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme what I cry for
You know you’ve got the brand of kisses
That I’d die for
You know you made me love you
You made me cry for
I didn’t want to tell you
I didn’t want to tell you
I want some love that’s true
Yes, I do, ‘deed I do
You know I do
Gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme what I cry for
You know you’ve got the brand of kisses
That I’d die for
You know you made me love you.
That is true of me in my pre-Muslim years. Men, some rich and most powerful did actually love me – I do know. They did, please read the blog and extrapolate.The definition of extrapolate is? to extend the application of (a method or conclusion) to an unknown situation by assuming that existing trends will continue or similar methods will be.
My attraction to rich and powerful men began in London in 2016 – before that I was attractive to men in the USA and Canada (where I was born) but until I went to London in 2014 the extent of my charms were not so extensively known. The most incisive comment came from an extremely posh doctor in London.
Me: Why am I so popular?
He: It is because there is a shortage of 72 year old sexy women in this city.
I was quite amazed and caught off guard but should have said:
Me; And you are looking at her!
There was a ‘lasting’ relationship with a man who was married (sort of) – he grew to love me even though he did not want to. At this point in time he is long gone (of course as he lives in England and I in the USA.
Then to Vancouver, British Columbia Canada, when my student visa expired and I was forced to return to either the land of my birth or Trump Land. I chose Canada, There my charms continued – one multibillionaire and probably the most powerful man in Canada, which is not Trudeau but Grant Walsh- he is on every Board of Directors that count. And then there was Adam Temple – look him up, a self made millionaire who was able to take ultimate advantage of the legalization of marijuana in Canada. He is/was am amazing entrepreneur and success (but a pain in the rear end with his ambivalence). Then it was back to the USA in 2019 where my success rate has not been magnificent – anyway with the rich and powerful. A trip to London yielded another multibillionaire who wrote love poetry to me (and hundreds of others). He was not a full time resident of London, lives elsewhere in the Middle East. Then along came the wondrous coronavirus and I was totally shut down. Well, not totally as I met a young man in London (from Qatar actually) who proposed. He said he is worth 36.4 billion and it is utterly believable. So he says he wants to marry me but it is not working out depart e the fact that is a Muslim (and therefor eligible). It is complicated, I am sure, but no insight into the inner workings of Royalty (either the Windsor type or Qatar type.
So there we are and here I am. I imagine a conversation in Marin when I am finally able to emerge after nine months of seclusion here in San Francisco. It is between me and a most handsome young man.
He: Let’s get together and have coffee.
Mw: There would be no purpose in that,
He: Why????
Me: It is because I have become a Muslim and I cannot have have sex with anyone but my husband, and he has to be a Muslim. Are you a Muslim?
He: No.
Me: Well you could convert that would be silly for a cup of coffee. It is not difficult actually but requires a lot of reading – specifically the Quran.
He: Well, I will think about it.
Me; Go ahead, It is actually not that difficult and I could help you. Later.
He: Yes, later.
One must be prepared for life’s exigencies.. Exigencies synonyms are: need, demand, requirement, want; necessity, essential, requisite.
So I am ready for this demand for coffee. The words are imprinted on my mind. I am totally prepared Not going to waste my time on worthless men anymore. It is not within the Islamic faith. And besides, I can buy my own coffee, thank you very much. An independent income is the key to life – women. One can reject multi-billionaires and millionaires which I have. Some, if not most, were handsome as well, and quite a bit younger than I am. HONEST!!!
So I am out of the running. The move to Marin may not be such a grand idea because I do not think there are very many Muslim men in Marin. I lived in Marin from 1973 – 2014 but I was not then a Muslim and was otherwise occupied, with many men actually prior to my second and third marriages. Of course, those marriages and relationships were obviated upon conversion into the faith. Obviate is a peculiar word, it appears in the Quran actually – its synonyms are prevent, remove, get rid of, do away with, get round, rule out, eliminate, make unnecessary, take away, foreclose, avoid, avert, counter. So those man are averted, foreclosed, made unnecessary, ruled out and eliminated. It is actually very freeing, leaving one with a feeling of contentment. I do admit that it is strange.
The photograph is of a framed needlepoint gifted to me by my childhood friend, Beth Harris – many years ago. She did the work, I had it framed. It hangs in he bedroom of my soon to be vacated San Francisco apartment but will come with me to Marin. You see, I can be sentimental.
