This on Instagram from Rubenrezz, important and true words, one of the reasons I love Instagram.
Fall in love with someone who wants you, who waits for you, who understands you even in the madness. Someone who helps you, and guides you someone who is your support, and your hope . fall in love with someone who talks with you after a fight, fall in love with someone who misses you and wants to be with you. Do not fall in love only with a body or a face or with the idea of bring in love
Me: great advice. Looking for someone my whole life and I am 76.
He: It is never too late, right
Me: Thank you my dear. You encourage me! Xoxoxox
I have resumed a normal life – or what passes for one. Perhaps, in my ‘normal’ life I shall find someone, end up falling in love with a worthy man who promises all of those things. I do admit to being transient for years – five to be exact. Dr. Robin Wolfson in London coined the term – we had the best conversations when I was under his care. I discovered, during the las six months in London that I had private medical care, reimbursed by the medical insurance provided by the County of Marin. Private Medical care in London is so posh, so incredible, so wonderful. NHS can render adequate, even superior care, but it is uneven. Private medical care is sheer heaven, The best of doctors, the receptionists polite and gracious, the offices chic. Dr. Wolfson and I somehow made a connection which was actually recognized and appreciated by Dr. Sandberg the internist who took over my care. Dr, Sandberg was also the internist for Dr. Wolfson and his family. Dr. Sandberg could not believe that “Robin” and I met only twice as we seemed so close. This from an earlier blog.
Transient was a word Dr. Robin Wolfson in London applied to me – what a great guy. Transient: temporary, short-lived, short-term, ephemeral, impermanent, brief, short, momentary; fleeting, flying, evanescent, passing, fugitive, fading, mutable, unstable, volatile, here today and gone tomorrow, fly-by-night; rare fugacious. ANTONYMS permanent, perpetual, constant.
I would like to think that Dr. Wolfson found me flying, evanescent, here today and gone tomorrow. I did, after all, leave London. The following conversation did take place.
Me: Why am I so popular?
He: It is because there is a shortage of 73 year old sexy women in London.
Me: (should have said) Yeah! And you are looking at her.
Now that I am permanently in San Francisco, and there is a constancy about me, therefore, a different sort of man will fall into my web. However, I am not counting on it. What is that word however? This is how is is used: to introduce a statement that contrasts with or seems to contradict something that has been said previously: Used in a sentence: People tend to put on weight in middle age. However, gaining weight is not inevitable. Here are its synonyms: nevertheless, nonetheless, still, yet, though, although, even so, (but) for all that, (but) despite that, (but) in spite of that; anyway, anyhow, be that as it may, having said that, notwithstanding; informal still and all.
So anyway, even so, having said that and not withstanding, I doubt that I shall find true love despite the fact that I am now leading a more stable and permanent existence.
The day before yesterday I had a melt down, my positive attitude utterly failed and depression, tears and despair took its place. My knee was causing me much pain and it seemed that all of these weeks of effort and hard work had not yielded the results hoped for. It was startling to all, particularly those at Presidio Sports Medicine. But my wonderful physical therapist got me back on track.
Me: All I have been doing for weeks is concentrating on my knee, and for what?? I am still in pain particularly at night and you are telling me that I am going to continue to need physical therapy even when I am in London. I thought I was supposed to be better. There are other parts to me, other than my knee – there is my head and other parts (said salaciously) Oops forget the last part.
He: But Alexis you are doing so well! In four weeks you are at the level that most people are at the end of 12 weeks!
Me: Wow! I did not realize that. I guess I had unrealistic expectations – that is not my fault because no one explains this process to you. Now you are saying I need to take a stick with me to London. I do not even know how to use a stick, not even what hand to use.
He: Alexis, your left hand.
Me: That makes no sense to me at all! It is my right knee.that had the surgery
He: Alexis – just walk for me.
Me: Ok Ok Ok. Here goes.
He: Alexis, you do not need the cane. But take it with you.Carry it in your right hand.
Me: All right! I can use the cane to beat men off.
He: Good idea!
Then I became perfectly happy. But let us go back to the word salacious. Oops – it means: having or conveying undue or inappropriate interest in sexual matters. What am I doing speaking salaciously to my physical therapist? There is no hope for me.
But the stick came in handy yesterday. You will hear more about it but I was leaving the Asian Museum after my first day of volunteering. It was an exquisite experience. That is, lovely, elegant, graceful; magnificent, superb, superlative, excellent, wonderful, well-crafted, well-made, well-executed, perfect; delicate, fragile, dainty, subtle; intricate, tasteful, fine, choice.
I was at the stop light, cane in hand and there was a man with a Pitt bull and the Pitt pull began to defecate on the side walk at the stop light. The huge young owner just let him.
Me: What are you doing letting that dog defecate on the sidewalk. What is the matter with you? And do not let that dog off the leash or I will hit him with my cane!!
Ordinarily I would not be that brave and I have dog phobia and am terrified of Pitt bulls. But with my cane, I can do anything.
But what happened next was unbelievable. Another huge young man passed me saying:
He: Leave people alone.
Me: Are you kidding?. That dog is shitting on the street and you are picking on me.? I will not leave people like that alone. I will not leave you alone either you rude idiot!
Then I swore at him as he hurried down the street. But this next part is also unbelievable. There was a van parked on the street with a man in a wheelchair sitting in his ‘home’. It was very messy, dirty and smelled of urine.
He: You are beautiful!
I stopped and went to this door and smilingly said:
Me: Well cute, maybe, but not beautiful. I am 76.
He: You must have been absolutely beautiful when you were younger.
Me: Maybe, but I am not that bad even today. But THANK YOU so much. I so needed your compliment right now. It made me feel so good.
It did, it restored my faith in humanity. Two arrogant rude young men with defecating dog and a pompous attitude. But then a truly nice, handicapped older man telling me I was beautiful. Novice readers may not know this but I always tell the truth – so all of this really happened. Well sometimes I exaggerate a little but in this case – not – it all happened.
The photograph is from the Asian Art Museum. .